1.24 Sweet Nothings


~Sabrina’s P.O.V.~

Screenshot-427The days and weeks following the twins’ arrival passed by in an unrecognizable blur. We somehow survived those rough first weeks. I often felt like a human milk machine, which I essentially was. And the hormones! No one tells you the hormones after the birth can be even worse than during the pregnancy. One evening, Justin returned home from work and found me hiding in the bathroom, sobbing into my hands. He threw his jacket onto the bed and rushed to my side, “Baby, are you okay? What happened?”

I stood up, shaking my head, “It’s nothing, Justin. Everybody’s fine. Esther is planted in front of the TV, Cassidy is doing homework, and the boys are sleeping.”

He put his arms around me, “What’s the matter then?”

I laid my head on his shoulder, “It’s these stupid hormones. I still cry at the drop of the hat. This morning, your mother dropped by, which was a pleasant surprise…until she dropped some passive aggressive remarks about how I was still wearing my maternity clothes.”

He put his arm behind his head, “Oh, honey, I’m so sorry. You know I find you sexy as hell.”

I sighed, “You know, most days I’m too wrapped up in our life that we’ve built together to worry about my weight, but for goodness sake, Justin. The twins are almost three months old and my clothes still don’t fit me.”

Screenshot-428.jpgI was crying again at this point, but Justin just pulled me closer, hugging me tight. He kissed my forehead, “Babe, your body has been through hell and back this last year. Give yourself some time to heal and I promise I’ll help in any way I can.” His face lit up, “Starting tonight, we’re all going to take a family walk around the neighborhood before bedtime. Yeah?”

I started crying harder, but this time they were tears of joy. Justin wiped my face and whispered, “Tomorrow, I’ll call Julia and see if she is free to babysit on Friday. You and I can go out, and I’ll show you exactly how beautiful you are.”

True to his word, we walked the neighborhood with the kids, each of us pushing a stroller, while Cassidy and Esther led the way. The rest of the week managed to fly by in a whirlwind of diaper changes and tantrums. Friday could not come any sooner but come it did. Julia showed up three hours earlier than planned. I opened the door and threw my arms around her, “Get in here, girl! How are you doing? I’m so sorry we missed your birthday last month. Did you get my card?”

She laughed as she scooped up Esther, “So many questions, but I’m good. I had a blast at my party, and I totally don’t blame you for not coming. I did get your card, and I loved Cassidy’s drawing.”

Esther clapped her hands, “Auntie Juju, look!” She wiggled until Julia set her on the ground. Esther spun in a circle until she collapsed in a fit of giggles. Julia smiled wide, “Wow! Good job, Esther.” She turned to me, “I’m sorry for coming so early, but I thought I’d give you a small break if you wanted to nap, or take a soak in the tub. Any way I can help you.”

Screenshot-426.jpgI tried to stop the tears from flowing, but I was powerless against these damn hormones. I flung my arms around her, whispering my thanks before practically ran up the stairs, drawing a nice relaxing bath.

By the time Justin came home from work, my hair and makeup were all done. Oliver was on my breast, and Ryan was asleep in the bassinet. He gave me a quick, “How long has Julia been here?” I sighed happily, “Three hours or so.” He chuckled before burping Oliver so that I could get dressed. As we made our way downstairs, Cassidy rushed over to us, “Don’t go! Please don’t leave me here! Just stay…” Justin handed the baby to me and pulled her off of his leg. He led her over to the couch and I walked into the kitchen to hand Oliver over to Julia, “Okay. I know you have our numbers but I wrote them down as well as the pediatricians and Justin’s parent’s number.” She smiled, but I pressed on, “Ryan is asleep upstairs, but he’ll be ready to eat in an hour or so. Ollie just ate, but he’ll probably poop within the hour. Their pacifiers are in the top drawer of the changing table and their fresh bott-”

 Screenshot-430She took Oliver from my hands, “Really, Sabrina, the kids and I will be fine. If I get overwhelmed, I’ll make Ethan come over and help me. Go on and have fun.” After

 She shooed us out the door and Justin led me to the car. Once inside I asked him, “Was Cass alright? I’ve never seen her so scared.”

He held my hand as we drove along, “Well, in the last year or so, she’s been through quite a lot. I think this is the first time, besides when she’s in school, that she hasn’t had either of us near her. I reassured her that she could stay up with Julia until we get home and I promised her an epic bedtime story.”

I laughed before leaning back in my seat, enjoying this time together. Once we came closer to our destination, Justin made me close my eyes. He helped me out of the car, and led me down a sidewalk. Finally, after a couple of minutes, he held my hand tighter, “Okay, this is it. Open your eyes.”

I opened them to find him down on one knee, roses in one hand and my left hand in the other. His eyes were full of tears, “One year ago today, we were supposed to be married. This last year has been the toughest you and I have and hopefully ever will deal with.” His tears spilled over but he continued, “Sabrina Quinn, will you marry me today?” My mouth flew open so he quickly explained, “I wanted it to be just you and I today. Something intimate and small, nothing to stress over but if you want to wait and-“

Screenshot-433I interrupted him by placing my hand on his cheeks and kissing him. When we parted, I whispered breathlessly, “Yes.”

We came home that evening as Mr. and Mrs. Justin Walsh. As promised, Justin led Cassidy upstairs to begin her bedtime story, and I paid Julia for her time, “Did they behave themselves?”

She laughed, “Yes. Esther stuffed herself with chicken nuggets before she promptly fell asleep in her high chair in a food coma. Ryan and Oliver went to bed about an hour ago, and Cassidy and I had a lot of fun watching a movie.”

I hugged her before walking her out to her car, making sure to convey my thanks. I went back inside and plopped down on the couch with a contented sigh. A few minutes later, Justin joined me, a smile creeping across his face, “Well, Mrs. Walsh, what shall we do now?”

Screenshot-436I moved closer to him until I was in his lap, “I can think of a few things.”

He wrapped his arms around me and began kissing me passionately. As he rolled me onto my back, the cry of a hungry infant stopped us in our tracks. I kissed Justin, “It’s probably Ollie. If I don’t go now, he’ll be too angry to eat and it’ll take twice as long.”

 Justin smiled lazily, “Will you be returning to this couch, Mrs. Walsh?”

I smiled as I went up the stairs, “I guess you’ll just have to wait and see…”